so what got me into this mood was because i was tweeting. and i dont wanna flood my followers’ timeline with emo (or however emo i can get) tweets. so im here using a different channel. there’s a bloody lot going through my mind, like a bloody lot. but this mostly stems from the fact that i’ve changed through this uh, 8 months away from home, and a lot has been happening (that even if i wasnt away i was bound to change anyway). but basically, im just troubled because something (or things) i treasure no longer feels the same and im wondering if its me or you or i dont know. and technically, if im pondering about it and giving it so much thought i guess it still means something to me? i kinda am gonna give up writing cause i think i might have just come up with a perfect person to talk to. smacking myself now cause how could i forget my old, wise, best friend.
“Relatives haven’t got the remotest knowledge of how to live, nor the smallest instinct about when to die.” – The Importance of Being Earnest.
my current bible/guide to life. oscar wilde’s a genius. just wish he’d written less lyrical ballads.
My room:
Damn stressed pls. Exam week but haven’t studied for anything (and I have 2 out of 6 papers down already) cause dont need to study. I already pass. I could have skipped the whole exams and left for my tour around US 2 freaking weeks ago. But no. I can’t. Cause there’re 2 mods that are 30% so I only have 59.1 marks. Which is a fail, cause passing here is 60. So what do I do? Go for the paper and try to score 3 marks, out of the 100, so that would be 0.09% and I can pass so It will map back to NTU. But no. Singaporean in me didn’t allow that. Had to complete the paper and I guarantee I have 70 marks. AT LEAST. It’s so weird that all I need to do is pass here, but I keep trying to score As effortlessly (cause I NEVER score As and I need to boost my poor beat up battered ego). And I didn’t even study for that guaranteed-70-marks paper k. another 2 more papers tomorrow, and I’m not intending to study either. Busy packing. LOOK AT MY ROOM. Look at that picture. How to study and risk not bring able to leave by the 7th.
So today I had another paper, and my prof talked to us individually after the paper. (note. Paper started at 3. First person finished at 3.20. I finished at 3.30) for once in my freaking life I get to be “the ah tiong”. The first few to finish the paper and leave early. So my prof asked if I was gonna be here for summer school and if I would be here in fall cause he wants me to take his classes. He absolutely adores me, I tell you. How to not. Im one of his best student. And it’s a writing class. Meaning not much studying, but more practical news writing. It’s a news writing class. Comms. So he says I have a better writing style and better grammar than the other students and wonders if it’s because of the way they teach in SG. “you write better than any of the students in there (points).” I felt so so so sorry telling him I was an exchange student and am only gonna be there that sem. He’s my fav teacher from now on man. I haven’t been teacher’s pet since.. Forever. (I tried to think if I was in kindergarten but apparently not) so yes. Let his praises get in my head people. It’s rare.
On the other hand, I’m sure my Irish lit prof could not be any happier to get rid of me. I uphold the goals and values of an exchange student man. Skip all classes (and I was about to auto fail the class due to lack of attendance). I’m only allowed to continue the class cause my written work convinces the dean or whoever that I could continue. :/
Hmm. So 4 more papers. 2 each day tomorrow and the day after, and I’m done. For once not exclaiming that I’m done cause I’m gonna freaking miss TCU. I could have graduated w first class honors here effortlessly. If only I were a perm student. Sigh. But 3 more days and I’m off to Seattle! Then Portland, Oregon, then San Francisco, california (the one I’m most hyped up about), then meeting my cousin and bf in grand canyon, then las Vegas, and lastly LA (only excited about the theme parks, but San Fran still wins on the excitement scale), then flying off to Washington DC, and then New York (the only reason why my sis is here). And then home sweet home. Mixed feelings here. No comments. Wanna go back and really dont wanna go back. But then I’ll be back in sg for about 3 weeks and then I’m flying off to Korea (!!!) for summer school! So. I’m gonna get as much radiation flying around as the Japan people.
And I’m stressed. Very. A lot of things not booked yet, a lot of hostel stuff to settle, and still gotta pack my luggage and pack the stuff I wanna ship back and wah lau. Do you know how taxing/vexing it is to plan a trip, let alone plan so many trips to so many freaking places?! Oh and on a side note, it’s exam week. Yah not like it matters to me but wah. If I were an international permanent student here I wouldn’t like my life now. All these nonsense to settle and yet need to study for exams. Unlike Ntu, when exams end, you have 24 hours to move out. A bit fast ah.
Yah. Still cannot fit inside one box and that big box still cannot close. Should I throw my boots away or ship back. Or bring around. Kinda din deh and it has heels all. So take up weight nevermind, take up space also. A lot. Of space.
Cillian Murphy. Irish.
well well, looks like boring, war histories, documentary-ish literary movies arent all that bad after all. wouldnt mind if the rest of my screening list for irish lit here are of this standard. well, i learn something new everyday. who knew.
Mardi Gras: still gonna migrate here
Posted: March 7, 2011 in events, INSTEP USA Exchange, picspam, spazzes
okay. had my first mardi gras celeb. basically all celebrations in USA > singapore. like we get more into the mood of things. gonna go study for test so i’ll just give the gist of Mardi Gras here cause i thought it was some homosexual parade in New Orleans with masquerades, parties, sleeping around and all. well, i was almost right. only got the homosexual part wrong.
irony is, Mardi Gras is “fat tuesday” to celebrate and feast (like mad) on tuesday before Lent comes. some catholic religious thingy. i dont know how sleeping around, partying, baring breasts for beads and all came about. warped tradition all. but still, its all cool. on tuesday market place (my school’s really awesome all-you-can-eat intl buffet canteen) will be giving out the beaded necklaces and all the awesome stuff.
went to visit this girl’s dorm. and she decorated her dorm. which was more like an apartment. we should have chose to stay at the commons. sigh. not too big, not too small. so like yes, the colours are green purple and gold.
and this is what mardi gras is supposed to be: (what i got from wikipedia anw)
The New Orleans Carnival season, with roots in preparing for the start of the Christian season of Lent, starts afterTwelfth Night, on Epiphany (January 6). It is a season of parades, balls (some of them masquerade balls), andking cake parties. It has traditionally been part of the winter social season; at one time “coming out” parties for young women at débutante balls were timed for this season.
so yes. total slut fest. but you get why i thought it was some homosexual sleeping around thing. with beads and necklaces and glitter glamour, masquerades, masquerade balls, parties, and king’s cake. i love the official colours though.
and king’s cake:
The cake has a small trinket (often a small plastic baby, sometimes said to represent Baby Jesus) inside, and the person who gets the piece of cake with the trinket has various privileges and obligations (such as buying the cake for the next celebration).
love the idea of king’s cake. makes the event more significant.
so there were 11 of us at another guy’s apartment. its supposed to be a feast right. so a few of them cooked cajun, mexican, and us 4 singaporeans found indomie mee goreng at Kroger and got mother excited. bought 10 packets and cooked that. yes nothing compared to what they did, but still. they thought it was the best instant noodles ever. yea cause the cup noodles here kinda suck. tried one. speaking through experience please.
okay my pictures suck the better pics are with the other guy with that stupid DSLR. cannot stand film majors. must edit photos like its their job/assignment then can upload.
this. is his dorm. look at NTU. what is ntu man. and this is a 2 room apartment. and he has an extra bed in the living room for drunk people and stayovers. like LOL. but his dorm has this.. tree house/chalet kinda feel. DAMN COOL. the stairs leading to this room damn freaking scary please. going down scarier.
okay. so official Mardi Gras day on tuesday. CANNOT WAIT. i love this event man. they giving out the beaded necklace also. when i go back to singapore, im gonna start decorating my room in hall whenever there are such events. CNY halloween christmas, whatever. damn inspired. hahaha.
and preview for St Patrick’s.
okay i’ll admit i appreciate St Patrick’s a lot more cause im doing Irish Lit here. i learn about their culture, their history and all. so yesssss.
and i know. im supposed to be updating what i did in jan and feb. but im too lazy. and Mardi Gras is such a novel idea to me, i got over excited. so i decided to just upload the whole Mardi Gras thing first. the rest….. i’ll get to it when i get to it. but it wouldnt be anytime soon, cause... NEXT THIS WEEK IM HEADING TO ORLANDO FLORIDA!!!! SAY HELLO TO DISNEYWORLD (NOT DISNEYLAND OKAY) AND UNIVERSAL STUDIOS OHEMGEE MY HOGWARTS CASTLE!
meanwhile. this week i have 4 tests, 2 essay assignments. well, one of it is math, so no need study. we’ve been getting As without doing a thing man, cause we’re doing Amath like (LOL much) and some H2 complex number math thingy. and the other is media writing, only 10% of overall grade and no need study too. i dont know, life here’s good. wish it werent reflected as pass fail in NTU cause im getting As. can definitely pull up GPA. sigh. and im getting As without much effort. life’s unfair.
and so, we’re skipping friday to go to orlando. basically, after handing up 2 essays and doing 2 tests on thursday, we’re gonna rush to the airport. fun or what. never did exams and flying in a day before. so yes. imma go start studying for the MCQ test tml. its 3am.
Protected: a 21st conversation (you all better still rmb the pw)
Posted: February 11, 2011 in bitchings, joke/funnyTags: cheyenne, fiona
so much has been going on, SO MUCH. all i can say is OMG THANK GOD I CELEBRATED MY 21ST HERE IN THE US CAUSE EVERYTHING IS BIGGER IN TEXAS, INCLUDING BIRTHDAYS! its a hell unforgettable one and all should do 21st-s overseas. and i need to thank a lot of people.
“I absolutely love birthdays. It’s the one time you feel like the world’s most important and treasured person. And you receive wishes from so many unexpected people, of whom you gave less attention than you should have given, it makes you wanna change to be more thoughtful, be a better person and all. And of course receiving from those expected people, the ones you treasure more, also makes your day. THANKS EVERYONE!” – been posting it on all my private sites, to ensure maximum outreach. refusing to put it on fb though. most importantly, i’ll need to thank my family, mostly my dad who is funding my whole trip. best 21st present ever, this entire trip. (most expensive as well)
i will uh, try? to update photos here and type essays of my life so far but i dont see that happening anytime soon. i should also upload one whole bunch of items i bought already. mad insane. 3 weekends only and i spent over 1kUSD on shopping. love my coach bag, ck bag, and fossil watch the most! bags were impulse buys but the best impulse buys ever and the watch’s my 21st gift to myself!
im just going through some dilemma now. cause i was intending to go for a second exchange, global summer studies, to korea, next year. summer 2012. BUT it clashes with my internship.
so should i not go for GSS, or go this year which is really rushed cause i would have just completed my US exchange, or not go for ntu’s internship and do my own outside. OR APPLY FOR OVERSEAS INTERNSHIP!
so migrating in future! not gonna stay in rip-off singapore. wait for my list of shopping items and SEE HOW CHEAP I BOUGHT THE ITEMS FOR. (if i ever get to typing it, that is.)
texas is awesome.
Posted: January 2, 2011 in birthdays, events, gathering, INSTEP USA Exchange, picspam, spazzesTags: alvic, alvina, cheyenne, family, fiona, huiling, kailing, kason
texas is so awesome i may not wanna go back. look at this.
i mean yes they have this in singapore but they have the brands they dont carry in sg.
anyway i think i didnt handle my farewell properly or as well as i should have. but well. we all didnt sleep (or didnt sleep much) so all kinda stoned anyway.
got this farewell gift from my best bitches. who planned a surprise cum farewell for me but i ruined it by not attending cause i was packing last min and had pms.
who’s that extremely cute baby?! my mum saw this and said: “EH! so cute! who’s that?” WAH LAU EH. then chy, fiona and kl had their day made. and that wasnt enough, after that while i was checking in, she had to go tell them all my secrets and unglam stuff. hello, privacy? they sharing info about me like no one’s business!
and then they gave me a Tiffany necklace, for my 21st. i am really, really psyched about celebrating it here this place is like omg. i kinda already dont wanna return to sg and its only my second day here. its a key with a diamond. like real diamond. i dont know the carat but thank god they didnt give me the bean one cause my sis already has that and yes she got a tiffany earlier than me. worse still, i only found out that bean thing was a Tiffany only after a few YEARS. like FML kay i used to think the bean was horrendous.
then i also got a zara coat from my hall friends. and i started using all the stuff my friends gave me. alvina’s christmas present (lip balm) and my 2oth present from my lit friends (bodyshop bath set that comes with body butter). i am cracking and peeling and shedding skin like the zodiac sign i represent. (i am not a horse okay. i am one sign above that. you know. just for the dumb)
cheyenne was there but she left earlier so she isnt in this photo awww but oh well.
3 days left. nervous, scared, excited, fucking excited, dread, regret, nervous. yeah, kinda flows in that order.
ever since exams ended all i’ve been doing is shopping for winter stuff and clothes and things i need for my exchange, meeting friends for the last time and having gatherings with relatives, eating, eating and eating. i cannot get enough of din tai fung and good authentic ramen. and my relatives keep buying me local food to eat cause everyone says i should eat my fill cause i wont be able to eat it for 6 months. and though i’ll be missing CNY, which means missing out on receiving money, everyone has kinda given me like, 10 times more of what i would normally receive anyway. and to prove money isnt the only thing on my mind, and that i actually worried about missing the festive celebrations, there are chinese new year festivals and lunar new year festivals (dont ask me what’s the diff) in certain parts of texas. which means YAY.
i havent even started packing. i kinda have to unpack the stuff from hall first. and i also havent finished buying my stuff. speaking of which, i threw a fit at my mum and sis today while shopping because they refused to let me buy the coat from zara or any wool/leather/long coat. and then i threw another fit because while i was stressing that i havent bought everything, my mum insisted on going home when it was only 7. so i fumed. and then only to discover my friends planned a surprise at home and that they already bought my coat. and im either getting more stupid or people around me are getting smarter. what happened to the days when i never get surprised because im always smart enough to catch on. 3rd surprised surprise. and all by different people! first by aaron in robinsons, but that was cause i never expected it. second by my favourite bitches this year with the hotel, and today’s from the people from hall. so unexpected that they came in while i was lounging like some unglam nua shit without make up on. wah and we took photos somemore. AND NOT FROM MY CAMERA. gone are my chances of filtering.
yes i’ll be having my 21st there but i’ve taken on a better perspective. because it means, no need for planning a super glam, fucking awesome 21st party! (because my 21st party needs to be nothing less than fucking glam, and fucking awesome. and that is hard) hahaha AND HOW MANY OF YOU GET TO CELEBRATE YOUR ONE AND ONLY 21ST IN US ITSELF HUH LOSERS. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA. dont we all hate those normal chalet parties where we invite everyone we know and dont end up having fun anyway. so ta da, problem solved. because my other alternative was to book an entire club (not feasible because of grandparents and underaged cousins) or book a yatch (expensive, expensive, expensive). so problem solved. wah i am damn smart! and the US dollar choses this period to drop its like my destiny like america is calling me whoopie. only setback now is skipping my bestfriends’ 21st which sucks a hell lot. (but i’ll be coming back with goodies. ahem, kate spade, ahem)
meanwhile not thinking about packing because its such a headache but i have no time left. gonna miss everyone feeling so nostalgic but yet so excited cause i checked out Fort worth, Houston and Dallas and found lots of shopping to do omg so excited and after that we’re gonna go tour the US WE WILL BE GOING TO DISNEYWORLD FLORIDA LIKE WOOHOO HEAVEN HERE I COME and then maybe going up to canada Toronto or something i dont know but omg omg omg omg omg. i can be a disney princess! ahhhhhhhh! hey every bitch has her innocent disney times. i mean we were once 5.
and yes im feeling guilty cause im spending a lot of my dad’s money and i’ll totally miss home my family and grandparents omg i really hope nothing happens to them when im there im usually the one around noticing if anything is wrong touchwood and all but im damn worried and im worried i’ll leave things behind and that it’ll be freezing cold. coldest is like -5 and i sibei scared cold one and scared i go there grow fat and all. and omg when i converted, im only a five foot two. which is practically a kid’s height. omg im so short.
departure on morning flight. also freaking worried bout that. like need to be at airport at 6 like ohmygod la my sleeping time oh yes, i can totally adjust my body clock completely no jet lag wow am i awesome or what how many people would wish to be me and im dragging a 29 inch luggage bag. kisiao half my size already praying i can cope. and i dont know what im supposed to wear. if i wear singapore clothes, i’ll go there and freeze. if i wear US clothes, i’ll die of heatstroke before i even get up the plane.
its supposed to be “This bitch is usually docile until provoked.” not “this bitch is aggressive provoked or not”. what. is. happening. to. me.
and this is why A levels have adverse effects on family members.
sis: “yes, WE’RE IN THIS. we’ll win this thing. Go eat macs everyday.”
me: “I’m sick.”
sis: “you can be sick everyday as long as we win 80k.”
